I wanted to write this exam earlier, but all the dates got taken up, so the earliest in Dec I got, and booked was....
December 14, 2010 at 8 am.
I'm bloody scared and nervous as its the same test centre that I failed my last 2 times. It's a weekday though... maybe that will help me.... in either case... I need to face my fear and demons and get them under control before exam day.
Right now, I'm racked with anxiety that I can't sleep.
This too shall pass.
Hey GmatGal
ReplyDeletejust like you, i dont exactly like sharing my personal life, but after reading your blog i felt i could share it with you...so here goes...
i gave my first Gmat yesterday and i scored a 480!!!and this has really shattered me!!! because in my GMATprep this is how i scored 550, 580, 640 , 580, 580, 610... im just astonished it fell that low!!
i have cried all night long!!..have not been able to sleep.. dint feel like getting out of bed in the morning... and now here i am writing to you at 12 noon, without even brushing my teeth...im badly shattered! im even started doubting my capabilities like hell, though after reading the forums of beat the gmat... i do intend to give it again... but i dont know where to start!! im really lost, and id really appreciate it if you could guide me....
i intend to give it again after 31 days , cause that is the earliest when i can give next, i am a graduate and gmat is only thing i can do, i have no other options.... to look into...no other way.... i dont have a job, so i have a whole day at hand...to prepare....
please guide me as to what to do and where to start!!!
How is the prep coming along? Only 2 weeks to go for me, in about 4 days the countdown will begin :S
ReplyDeleteHi Michelle,
ReplyDeleteDon't worry... I felt the same way you did after my previous attempts... shattered as I really WANTED to do grad school. Let yourself go through that sadness for 1 day, and then pick yourself back up... you can't afford to waste time and you will see that stress can be managed with a positive attitude... (and trust me, half this exam is stress management - the other half is information management!).
31 days of full time study is a good time period. First, start by evaluating what you need to work on, and then start laying out a plan of action of areas you want to work on, and then stick to it.
Also... use the stress to your advantage... when you don't feel like getting out of bed in the morning... think about you not doing well on your exam and how that will make you feel... afterall, you just need to get out of bed to study.. and trust me - you'll be motivated to get out of bed and get into study mode... time is precious and this is the best time to do it - not later!!
Also, 1 more thing.... the GMAT does not define you. I personally want to give my 200% on this exam. Prep in such a way that you know you have no regrets. If after this, it doesn't work, then that's when you (or I) need to think of next options... but don't waste time thinking about all that now... for now.. it's you CAN do this, and you WILL finish this journey in a month and enjoy the holidays. this is not rocket science - just a test of nerves!
Think positive and keep me posted :)